Losing myself was
easy to do,
just following along, living in the moment,
not remembering what
I was about.
Not making goals of
my own,
or plans, I had
forgotten,
for good it seemed,
never mentioned again.
At times I glimpsed
those dreams, in times of sadness,
a sadness that never
completely left.
I wondered why, when
I had it all,
or so I thought at
that time,
my life had changed
and I felt abandoned.
Instead of crying
over what was,
or what had changed, or why.
I decided to make my
life
the way I choose,
now.
Not to sit and cry
or be sad,
take those steps and
break away.
Cut that rope that
binds me, as soon as I can.
Make my own life by
myself,
dependent on no one.
Bring back my
health, I know I can.
Build my friend
network and laugh again,
laugh with friends,
laugh with cousins,
have some fun for a
change.
I am done with being
sad forever,
for never having a
friend,
or just not having a
free day
a day to do what I
want without
worrying about what
someone else will say
I am done with
watching my words
to not say something
in a tone of voice
that someone might
take the wrong way
Hoping for freedom
from this life,
wishing it would come tomorrow.
I need to find myself and in doing so,
I will find happiness once again.
Once I started working on a plan,
I got excited to think I could do this.
It is really going to happen.
Now nothing will deter me as the time nears,
sorry to cause pain and hurt in doing so.
but I must do what I must do.
Have to stop putting my life on hold,
because of feeling sorry for someone.
My life was wasting away,
day by day, locked in a prison of despair.
Now I have something look forward to,
a life of joy and independence.
I can't wait.
Copyright © 2018 Kathleen G. Lupole
All Photographs Copyright © 2018 Kathleen G.
Lupole
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